And I know that it's no friggin reason to be. I have "slowed down" on my journey, and to be honest, I am so pissed with myself that it's not funny. The reason I've slowed down (or really the excuse I've given myself): We're moving soon, and I need to get rid of the food in the house instead of buying more that we probably won't eat. Sounds "okay" right? Well, maybe it would be if the food we have left in the house wasn't processed and dehydrated and a box of meals. I bought a lot of this food over a year ago when that was the way that I cooked. Now that I actually know "how" to cook (totally a work in progress), I haven't touched these foods, and instead of throwing them away, I just saved them for the days when I didn't want to cook. A noble action I do believe, but now that means that I have allocated our food moneys to other sources (because we're moving!) and fresh fruits and veggies??? Yeah, non existant. So, that leaves me "thinking" that I'm super hungry all the time. If I have those very necessities, I can snack on those, and I would be fine. But no....instead I have resorted to eating everything in sight (or at least it feels like it most days) and the majority of the time never feeling food. EVEN WORSE: when I do feel full or satisfied....I STILL EAT. I don't know what to do.
1) I have mulled over the idea of going to the gym.
(Excuses)I don't want to pay for a membership when we're moving soon
they don't offer childcare
they charge an outrageous price for childcare
2) I can just work out at home
(Excuses) I feel like a fool in my own home trying to workout
The children require too much of my time
I just don't have the energy
So, it's like I'm giving myself all kinds of "reasons" to not do this, yet I really want to. Frustrating much? But, I did start working out again today. Even if it's something simple like a few crunches and leg lifts (not to mention a little bit of housework). It doesn't seem like a lot, but it's what I have for now. Depending on where we end up living (find out on Thursday), I have been seriously considering a personal trainer...even if it's just the free one you get at first when you join a gym. I NEED SOMETHING. I'm so frustrated. :(
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